That Kind of Day

It hit me today.  The heaviness.  I didn’t have an appetite, so I forced myself to choke down some plain Cheerios and a banana.  I pulled on my leggings and a hoodie and went outside for a walk.  That’s all the energy I had for today.  But at least I was able to feel something…. like the cool wind on my face and hair and the crunch of leaves under my feet.  And I could see a little bee swirling around an orange rose, clover spreading across lawns, and big puffy dandelion seed-feathers floating in the air.  I tried to catch one but it floated above my reach.  The distant smell of cooking winded its way to my nose.  Things like this keep me feeling alive.

It’s been 2 weeks since my brother-in-law Wesley passed away.  Our family is still reeling.  I thought I was okay, but I’m not.  Not yet.  It’ll take some time.

 This has always been the time of year that I turn inward.  I focus my energy on art and creating in the quiet beginning of a new year.  Weeks ago, I had signed up for an art journal workshop. I didn’t know at the time just how much I’d need it.  Art has a way of healing; it’s been a bright spot during a dark time.
It’s called “Journey Within.”  I chose to keep my cover plain, and my ribbon simple and elegant, at least for my first one.  It’s a start.IMG_0305
The first “prompt” was inspired by the conversation our teacher Kiala had with artist Vivienne Mcmaster about going on a “photo walk”.  I took a walk alright…right outside in my backyard. 😉 PicMonkey Collage
I printed out the photos from said walk and made them into a collage in my journal.
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The second prompt was all about seeds with artist Kelly Johnson.  I chose daisy seeds and painted a design and lettering from a pretty quote.
It whetted my palate for watercolor again.
I must admit, I can feel a laser beam of light trying to prick it’s way through my thick shell.  Well it’s trying anyway.  :-/

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About Brigitta Litfin

Hi Everyone! I'm Brigitta Litfin and I’m an artist living with my husband and two teenagers in Ripon, California. Sightseeing, baking and painting with watercolors take me to my happy place. To read more go to the about page.
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