It hit me today. The heaviness. I didn’t have an appetite, so I forced myself to choke down some plain Cheerios and a banana. I pulled on my leggings and a hoodie and went outside for a walk. That’s all the energy I had for today. But at least I was able to feel something…. like the cool wind on my face and hair and the crunch of leaves under my feet. And I could see a little bee swirling around an orange rose, clover spreading across lawns, and big puffy dandelion seed-feathers floating in the air. I tried to catch one but it floated above my reach. The distant smell of cooking winded its way to my nose. Things like this keep me feeling alive.
It’s been 2 weeks since my brother-in-law Wesley passed away. Our family is still reeling. I thought I was okay, but I’m not. Not yet. It’ll take some time.
This has always been the time of year that I turn inward. I focus my energy on art and creating in the quiet beginning of a new year. Weeks ago, I had signed up for an art journal workshop. I didn’t know at the time just how much I’d need it. Art has a way of healing; it’s been a bright spot during a dark time.
It’s called “Journey Within.” I chose to keep my cover plain, and my ribbon simple and elegant, at least for my first one. It’s a start.
The first “prompt” was inspired by the conversation our teacher Kiala had with artist Vivienne Mcmaster about going on a “photo walk”. I took a walk alright…right outside in my backyard. 😉
I printed out the photos from said walk and made them into a collage in my journal.
The second prompt was all about seeds with artist Kelly Johnson. I chose daisy seeds and painted a design and lettering from a pretty quote.
It whetted my palate for watercolor again.
I must admit, I can feel a laser beam of light trying to prick it’s way through my thick shell. Well it’s trying anyway. :-/